Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery
I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is changing (sharing) a Song of Enjoy and Creation or judgments of the vanity based on everything you look for (agree with) in the mind. There is no different way. In the Program, the mind (content) is split between God and the vanity; and you’re choosing all the time with an area as cause for effect.
Forms (all points with this world) are miscreations sending the ego’s judgmental thought system. We’ve made it up (miscreated this world) and will give it down anytime by correcting the mind (forgiveness). True prayer requires that correction of the mind as God has nothing regarding forms.
What Prayer is Maybe not:
As you are usually determining, everything you look for when you hope is what counts. When you plead in prayer to own God fix an application problem with another sort issue, you’re asking the pride brain for support (not God). These types and wants are considered more important than God’s Enjoy which will stay concealed to their education you decide on the illusion.
All external points (forms) are needs. Other brands are needs, dreams, position, problems, sickness, individual enjoy (special relationships), presents and goals these days, etc. They are what you select as replacements for God’s Enjoy and the confidence may overlook the goal of prayer by with them to help the illusion. Therefore, prayer can not be about “forms” or “needs” in any way.