Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery
I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Element of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I will be doing so for the incorrect reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to share was not yet clear during those times; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have allow you to see inside. acim teacher Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I possibly could not think of something that I’d said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I’d in arriving at the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere using its residents’reassurance, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his true videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief has been (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.